I don't have much time to get into it right now, but I need prayers for my faith. Ever since my mom died five years ago on Dec. 2nd, I have not been able to pray. I still believe in God but I feel so disconnected. When I do pray it's like i'm afraid of what to pray about. I'm afraid if I pray for strength or to be a better person or mother or whatever I feel God might have something bad happen to make me stronger. See I used to pray for strength and my Mom died. I know it's silly to think my mom died because I prayed for strength but I still can't pray for fear or for the fear my prayers are not heart felt. I don't know how to explain it any better, I would just ask if you guys just pray for me!! It's starting to really get to me lately.
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