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Weathered By Success

Perhaps the most amazing part of Scott Stapp's story is how his band rose to stardom amid an era of boy bands and teenage-girl pop stars. Creed burst onto the scene with a sound that included grunge and metal references but offered a decidedly different lyrical twist. Stapp's writing contained the volatile combination of messianic truth and spiritual uncertainty, mostly because he understood much of the Bible but not as much about his own place in the kingdom of God.

With other rock bands such as Marilyn Manson and Rage Against the Machine preaching anti-God and anti-establishment messages, Creed's questioning yet positive songs separated them from the pack. The band's first hit, "My Own Prison", described "a vision of a cross" and "the pain that was given on that sad day of loss." Stapp was unknowingly reaching out to a massive audience that was likewise searching for spiritual truth.

"I definitely think that it was a very instrumental part in why we connected and why we had so much seccess," Stapp says. "Because, to be honest with you, I don't think the songs are all that amazing--especially when I listen back to the first two records."

Scott's father agrees that Creed's success was not based on the music alone. Before the band took off, Lynda Stapp believed in her heart that Scott would become an evangelist and would reach the masses. It wasn't long before she and her husband realized how her expectation actually would come to fruition. "We think that (Creed) was brought to the level because God wanted it to happen," Steven says. "They've ministered to a lot of people and got a lot of people back in church and a lot of people saved through their music."

According to Steven, he still receives phone calls and letters from Creed fans who want the band to know how much Scott's music has influenced their lives. But for Scott, the idea of reaching out to the lost and hurting wasn't something he had initially bargained for. Beginning early in the band's career, music journalists labeled Creed a Christian band. Christian music fans started to take notice as well and openly longed for the group to make a public statement of faith. The prospect made Stapp and his band mates uncomfortable and somewhat perturbed. "For a time, early on in Creed's career, I was kind of mad about that," Stapp says. "We weren't a Christian band. I was a struggling Christian. I was never asked once, when I was in Creed, if I was a Christian. I was only asked if the band was. They weren't, and they actually resented me for the label. They didn't have those beliefs, and they wanted to be in a prototypical rock band. Because of those comments and opinions that people tagged us with, it was affecting their fun."

By the time Creed released its third album, Weathered (2001), the luster of fame and fortune was wearing off. Stapp and is wife of 16 months, a 19-year-old model, had divorced. He was raising their son, Jagger, by himself. Stepp knew he wasn't living right and was dealing with feelings of guilt and condemnation. He tried even harder to separate himself from his Christian faith. "I didn't feel like I was worthy of the tag." Stapp says. "When you're a Christian and you're in the public eye, people who don't believe are looking at you. They would've seen a double side with me. They would've seen a guy who's this way in faith, and then they would've seen that I was just like them. I was drinking. And after my divorse, I kind of went a little haywire with women. Nothing crazy, but stuff I know I shouldn't have been doing. That was not example. My walk wasn't right. I know that's an excuse, but when you're looked at and analyzed, there's a bigger responsibility to some degree that you have. I didn't want to accept it."

Things only got worse for Stapp. In February 2001, he got into a fight with the operator of a tattoo parlor, and two months later he was incited into a barroom brawl by a man who Stapp claims had been paid $10,000 by a national music magazine to push his buttons. A car accident, a bad case of pneumonia and harmful vocal-cord nodules took his life to a new low. In hindsight, Stapp says he should have taken more time off before hitting the road again, but external pressure from management aslong with internal pressure to please everyone drove him to take Prednisone, a steroidlike drug, to help reduce his inflamed vocal cords.

On December 29, 2002, at a concert in Chicago, Stapp was incapacitated by the drug's powerful side effects and the show was cut short. Some concertgoers sued both the band and the promoter and Creed later apologized for the incident on its Web site. The class-action suit eventually was dismissed.

Steven knew his son wa hurting physically and emotionally, so he flew to Philadelphia for the band's final your date on New Year's Eve. The two remained close throughout much of Creed's existence despite media reports that they had a chilly relationship. "I went up to the concert and when I saw him, I just hugged him and told him that I loved him and that was going to do a good job," Steve say. "Sure enough, he put on one of his best concerts ever."

By the end of the Weathered tour, Scott had grown weary of the jealousy and gossip surrounding the band. Ultimately, it was his waning desire to travel that caused Creed to take an extended break and eventually call it quits in June 2004.

Discovering Life Again

While Stapp was still searching for direction, he received a call from executive producers of The Passion of the Christ Songs, who wanted him to contribute a song. They flew him to Los Angeles for a preview screening of the movie. The film was heart-wrenching for him and helped him finish a song he had already started, titled, "Relearn Love." More important, Stapp found himself coming full circle in his spirtual journey. "The Passion of the Christ was the final nail in the coffin of my old life," Stapp says. "God had already started working in my life. I know that story (of Jesus) like the back of my hand, from being brought up in church. I've never told anybody this before, but I preached in my youth group when I was a kid. I though thtat was my calling in life fro a while there. So I knew that story. I was in such a bad place that I finally turned to God and things started moving from my head to my heart."

Since the disbanding of Creed, Stapp has enjoyed his time away from the spotlight. He takes great pleasure in being a regular dad. But his music career is far from over. He is working on his debut solo album, releasing on Wind-up Records. Ironically, he is label mates with Alter Bridge, a band formed by the other members of Creed. On the surface it looks like business as usual, but Stapp says there's no guarantee how long this newfound career will actually last. "God may take me in a completely different direction," he says. "I don't know. Right now I'm just going day to day and trying to do what's right and trying to see what God wants me to do with my life. It seems like old doors are closing for good and all these new doors are opening."

In many ways, Stapp has returned to his former existence. He now years for the consistent church life that he once rebelled against. In the meatime, he relies on two former youth pastors, Rick Berlin of Shreveport, Louisiana, and Fred Franks of San Francisco, for spiritual guidance and support. "I'm getting drawn back into the church," Stapp says. It's so funny--when you start making changes in your life, all of a suddent, you start bumping into all of these Christians...It seems like God is putting new people in my life and building this good foundation for whatever He's got in store."

Stapp also relies heavily on the support of his family, and according to his dad, can also thank fatherhood for helping him see the light. "He's still struggling, but he's getting a little older and a little more mature," Steven says. "He's a daddy and he realizes that whatever he does, his son thinks that's the way to do it. He understands more about how important it is to be a good example for his son." And as he continues to share his story with the public, Stapp is doing his best to fight off the occasional bout of spiritual stage fright. It's something he's dealt with his entire life, and now the stakes have been raised even higher. "There's going to be a lot of expectations of me--and I don't know that I'm going to do this, but I'm not perfect--so, yes, I'm going to sin," Stapp says. "I'm not using that as an excuse and I'm not going to do that on purpose. But if I do, which I'm sure I will, how's the Christian community going to treat me? Are they going to turn into the name-callers? I'm afraid of that stuff. But I've got to remember (that) God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. So I've just got to do what I believe is right whether people understand it or not."