Jen, I'm so so sorry sweetie, I wish there was something I could do for you
I will keep you in my prayers and your grandmother. I was about 30 when death hit my family hard too, I lost 5 people in 5 years, including my mom. It was the hardest time in my life, but you get through it, you will get through it somehow sweetie. What dosn't kill ya will make you stronger. Just be comforted by the fact you get to show your Grandmother how much you love her, my mom died suddenly and I would give my right arm to be able to say goodbye
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